Seventh course completed, now for the side effects. Actually I have weathered this course much better. The dose of oxaloplatin has been reduced and I am back taking the steroids, but I think the greatest improvement has been in my psyche. Simply by seeing the improvement in the CT and entertaining to prospect of a curative resection of the primary after the chemotherapy is completed, I have rediscovered some hope.
Spiritual hope is something I have always had, of course. Hope in a Biblical sense is not just a benign expectation, but a certainty achieved by believing the promises of God, but earthly hope is a lot more chancy. Andy Murray hoped to win Wimbledon but there was no certainty in that hope. Perhaps next year...
As an oncologist, I always believed in leaving patients with some hope. Survival curves always have a long tail and though it may be a long thin one like a laboratory rat's someone has to ride that tail and it may be you.
Anyway something has raised my spirits. Thanks for all those who have been praying.